Moments...

... so my perfect moment has come and gone, and many more moments have been replaced.  Many wonderful, some not so great, and the rest just the usual.
Life.

Days seem to fly by and I wonder how things never seems to slow down.
I fear I may be missing some of these moments because...
I forgot to pay attention...
I forgot that my first born is going to be a senior next year...
WHAT?
Wasn't it  yesterday that I was watching him on the sideline playing soccer praying that he would  kick the ball in the right direction.  Now I pray he is headed in the right direction when he is driving himself home.

Didn't I just turn 30?

Wasn't I just praying that my baby boy #3 would sleep just for a moment?...
Alright that one I am still praying for, it been 10 years, pretty sure he's not sleeping anytime soon.

It seems only yesterday when I cried hearing the news that baby boy #4 would most likely never walk, never talk, and the outcome of his life was uncertain...
Yet he proved them all wrong and does all of the above, perhaps not in the way most of us do, but he gets it done.

Yep moments are fleeting...

And because this is so I have chosen a new word to center me this year. 

present...

present: a moment in time, between past and future; now. Being, alert, at hand.  Attentive.  A gift.

Now not sure my kids would call me a gift, but perhaps some day they will. 
For now I will work on the present. 
The me that I can control and do so if need be moment to moment.
Perhaps even see those moments that I thought had passed.

At the present time I am off to bed, work is put away, dishes are done, and all my blessings are quietly tucked into bed in preparation for the world they must face tomorrow.